skinny skinny skinyy im gunna be skinnny again (: ahhh so im now livin he life of running, binging and purging, coffee, and fasting. I'm bringing this back down I don't care how sick I get again. Today is boring actually... Woke up mad early and went to the gym for two hours (-1300 cals mahaha) came home and binged and purged twice which actually felt sooo releaving even feeling dizzy again after and having a nice smoke. The suns out, im feeling some what better, and I'm losing weight.... Life is gunna be good, it is. and winter is coming so I can actually hide the weight loss this time. Hope your all doing fantastic. I'm always here if you wanna chat. Keep the chin up and stay strong!

damage:
breakfast- energy drink (20)
lunch- binge and purge
dinner- cigarette (0)
total: 20

control:
treadmill- 2 hours (-1300)
house work- 20 min (-100)
total: -1400

today: -1400

Hey girliess. So I'm sick again ): I have a nasty annoying cold and I know im sick when im at the gym and can't finish what I want to do. ugh. So I'm getting really frustrated with my weight. I think I know whats the deal man, seeing as my parents are the food police, and being in treatment and having to tell my rents the tricks (some of them), I can no longer purge when either of them are home... I use to binge and purge at night and keep nothing in, now if i eat... its in me until I work out. So I have to start planning my life around, Ed is now... becoming attached again, fantastic. And it's times like these when you regret EVER doing gymnastics because these thunder thighs are neverrr going to go away ): blahhhhh. Hope your all doing wellll. Comment it up.
stay strong lovess xo

I need help ): So im running everyday burning over 1000 cals... starve all day but I can't keep my control anymore at night... I use to purge at night but its impossible to now that my mom is home and on top of me so I do it when im home alone... my weight use to go down so fucking fast and im pissed at myself.. any ideas for night time? I hate this lack of self control... ED use to be soo much better and attached. Hope your all doing well! xo stay strong and smile!!!

I seriously love my fricken life. Woke up this morning and decided binge and purge before working out.... and starving the rest of the day. I have an appointment with my outpatient therapist and I don't know, I don't think I'm going to tell the truth anymore.. all I have to say is; everythings going great! When I get home I'm going to be doing lots of work around the house so burn baby burn. Hope you all have a fantastic day. Keep the chins up and stay strong, i promise this time I will update later... but where are all my girls? and the comments...

132.4
(in the 30's again thanks to treatment. fml)

man, I've realized today my life is soo boring! I'm home a lone everyday but Thursdays and weekends because I took off classes for this semester so I'm home, wake up early.. go to the gym for 2 1/2 hours, come home weigh myself (dropped three pounds), binge and purge, weigh myself again, then clean the same things around the house, smoke and watch dvr'd shows with lots of coffee. Seriously thats like everyday. Boooooring. I need to get another job since I lost mine while in treatment for two months, plus working around food isn't the best for me. I have nooo life girlssss. Today I'm doing pretty damn good. I love going to the gym early in the morning, I just want to run forever. I'm soooo back into my ED right now, it's not good. But I have to hide it well this time bevcause im not going away again. Okay, this is a boring talkative post. Ill post later ladiesss. Hope your day is going great. If not... well starting now smile and make it great (: stay strong!

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damage:
breakfast- protein bar (150)
lunch- binge and purge (100) ?
dinner- TBA?

control:
treadmill [1 hour 40 min]- (-1100)